The Joy of No Purpose

The Joy of No Purpose

I used to feel dreadful if I felt what I was doing had no real purpose. I would avoid meaningless tasks and activities, choosing instead to fill my mind with theories of philosophy or art or politics. I wanted to be intellectually stimulated and to feel that what I...

How Does Awakening Change Everyday Experiences?

How Does Your Insight and Experience of Awakening Make a Difference When Challenges Come? For some of us, there are still things to achieve and work towards in our everyday incarnation. In our relative lives, in our work and relationships, many of us still have things...
What Is Your True Self Anyway?

What Is Your True Self Anyway?

I was always wary of any teachings that promised a return to ‘your true self’. Mainly because this much sought after being seemed always to be presented as some kind of pristine version of myself that just didn’t ring…well… true! Words...
Returning to Your True Self

Returning to Your True Self

This week I decided to re-name my website, changing the name from Nothing Saying This to Heart of Presence. Seven years ago, I began writing about awakening experiences on this blog and titled it ‘Nothing Saying This’. To me at the time, nothing was not...
The Embrace of Yourself

The Embrace of Yourself

Whenever I invest in a self image that is not wholly true, I suffer. What is wholly true, embraces the absolute and relative realms of our directly experienced reality. It may be relatively true that I feel fear and doubt at times but those feelings are not ultimately...
Home in the Heart of Presence

Home in the Heart of Presence

I have just written and recorded a guided meditation called ‘Home in the Heart of Presence’. This meditation can be used to help you make contact with the timeless dimension of presence already within you. By becoming more and more familiar with this...
Awakening Is Not a Magic Pill

Awakening Is Not a Magic Pill

For so long I imagined and dreamed that waking up would be like taking a magic pill. I dreamed that depression and anxiety and other mental and emotional difficulties would just vanish into thin air. When I was really honest with myself, like so much of my desperate...
Be and Be Free

Be and Be Free

When it feels like the world is closing in around your head and the pressure feels unbearable, take a moment to just stop. Stop and notice the silence. Stop and notice the space. Stop and notice that there is something here that is not pressured, something here that...
The Eternal Discovery

The Eternal Discovery

Extract from Fragments of Being – by Mike Jenkins Purchase Fragments of Being  This is the eternal discovery. Discovering that being is being all that arises is this living realisation. It’ so easy to settle and get comfortable with understanding or clarity, to...
The Embrace that Transforms

The Embrace that Transforms

Extract from Chapter One of my new book. Like so many spiritual seekers, I was hoping to win the spiritual lottery and finally wake up an enlightened being. I imagined this would fix me and my life and bring all sorts of wonderful prizes. I dreamed that I would never...
Egocentric Living and the End of Suffering

Egocentric Living and the End of Suffering

After months of prevarication, I have finally started to write my next book! Here is an extract from an early chapter. Egocentric Living and the End of Suffering After about 5 years of working as a professional actor, with some promising but ultimately false starts, I...
The End of Longing

The End of Longing

For most of my adult life, I lived with the constant sensation that somehow, something very important was missing. I lived with an almost permanent niggling feeling of lack. This sensation took various forms and led me to look for various fixes… from smoking,...
In The Stillness of the Heart

In The Stillness of the Heart

Here, in the stillness of the heart it ultimately matters not what storms rage around. Indeed, all the storms of feeling, emotion, sensation and thought eventually come to rest in and know the stillness of the heart. It is the final winner, this stillness. It has the...
A Whole Lot of Nothing

A Whole Lot of Nothing

I know nothing.. nothing knows me… and nothing as it turns out, is a lot. Nothing is emptiness, is silence, is space. There’s a lot of that about, within and without. Silence and space are the the only true teachers. When you need clarity, space helps....
The Glass is Always Full

The Glass is Always Full

Your glass is not half empty and it’s not half full. It’s always completely full. The glass is you and the life you are and it’s brim full of aliveness. Every moment is THIS moment: totally alive, totally powered up and engaged, even if it’s...
When Nothing Arrived

When Nothing Arrived

Play the video after reading the scene from nowhere. A Scene from Nowhere  Somewhere, someone is waiting for something… tick, tock, tick, tock.  Someone speaks.  SOMEONE: Something will turn up sometime. This can’t last forever. Something has got to happen...
I’m Too Sexy for My (shirt) Label

I’m Too Sexy for My (shirt) Label

I had some brilliant and engaging conversations with writer Tony Green this past week about sexuality and identity (check out his page here) Something that has felt true all my life is that human sexuality is flowing and free and that many people (me included at...
Hopeless Romantic

Hopeless Romantic

I’ve always been a hopeless romantic which is plain to see If you see me As I am Am I as I am as The hopeless the causeless The clueless and blueless drunk on the moon and The riff of that tune That plays when you walk Or sit or talk In the room or the way the...
What I Remember Now

What I Remember Now

What I Remember Now (First Draft – 8:55pm Tuesday 27th January 2015) I remember that when I was in pain and felt small and alone and hated and rejected it was easy for me to poke fun the ones who were different or the ones who were strange or the ones who were...
Living Freely

Living Freely

More and more these days I get a sense of both being here and not being here. It is one of those divine paradoxes that makes no sense to the reasoning mind but which is understood through living it. Language can paint a picture but it is limited because it assumes...
Expressions of Fear and Lack

Expressions of Fear and Lack

Question: I look at the news and I see the horror and the suffering happening all over the world and I feel despair. It seems like things are getting worse, not better. I want to do something to help but feel totally helpless. All of the acts of violence that play out...
Heart Breaks Bigger

Heart Breaks Bigger

Just when you think you can’t love any more, when you get to the point where you think your love is spent, something splits and cracks open… and wide inside, rooms burst open, the house is suddenly a mansion. With every heart break, the heart gets bigger...
I Met Love

I Met Love

I met love on the dance floor of a basement club, on a crowded New York subway train, up the side of a mountain in Thailand, on the cancer ward and on the Old Kent Road… and it told me: I am everywhere, there is nowhere I am not. You will never reach the end....
Out of Control

Out of Control

I can of Myself do nothing John 5:30 The Bible; New King James Version We cling so firmly to the idea of free will and choice because the thought of not steering our own ship terrifies us. Without the freedom to choose, without a sense of agency and control we fear...
Walking Here

Walking Here

It’s all me really (and it’s all you too)… this last glass of surprisingly good white wine, this Gregorian chant, this memory of the citadel in Gozo, this sensation of dust in my shoes, this glowing screen, this feint smell of soap on my fingers, the...

Here I Am

Here I Am Here I am, sitting on the bed, pen in hand and writing once more. Here I am, as the air in the room and the space in the room and the wind blowing through the window. Here I am as the sound of birds singing in the trees. Here I am, as the light spilling...
From Silence

From Silence

Sitting in a Quaker meeting yesterday, immersed in silence and stillness with others, these words came to me: “There is nothing that does not come from silence, that is to say there is nothing that is not of God. There is nothing that is not the creation of...
An Irish Wish

An Irish Wish

An Irish Wish May your wee thoughts of yonder there and yesteryear be blessed to rest and leave you here ~ Mike Jenkins Happy St Patrick’s...

Hibernation

Hibernation I am taking a break from writing, speaking and meetings over the next few months. Please come back in the Spring when something might be appearing from nothing. In the meantime, feel free to explore the blog writings here and the videos on my YouTube and...

Directly Know That You Are

It’s so easy to become convinced that what you are looking for is out there, separate from you, in the future. Or that what is missing is some special, exciting, illuminating or exotic experience that some teacher, author or guru has had that you now need to...

Out of Nothing

Out of nothing this comes. Little black squiggles, marching out here on parade… prancing about like presentation ponies on the open page. And so it is with everything, spilling out of nothing. I sit in utter emptiness and out of this falls the fullness of the...

A Prayer

May all who find their way here Come to know that they are the love that does not end May you come to see the fullness that you are and to live the freedom that is life in love May you rest when you are tired and eat when you are hungry and know that you are loved May...

The Perfection You Are

Meeting this eternal moment is to encounter the perfection you are. Most of us end up with some story about ourselves that says in some way that we are not good enough, that something is missing and that something has to change for us to be at peace. Discovering the...

I am – Re-Imagined

I have often enjoyed the poem, ‘I Am’ by John Clare. The original has a melancholy feel to it, as the poet longs for a time and place that he seems to feel is lost to him. As I was reading this the other week, it struck me that this place he seems to so...

The Day is Ever New

Here is an article I wrote the other morning, sitting in bed as the day began… The Day is Ever New It’s dawn. The birds are just starting to stir. The wind rustles the leaves on the trees outside my bedroom window and I can hear the sounds of the day...

Seen Through The Being of It

When you look at what is here without any agenda to fix, get rid of, improve or move beyond what is really here, all you are really doing is being as you are with no mental game of wriggling for escape. Scott Kiloby writes about this activity of spiritual bypassing,...

Memo from God

Memo __________ To: You From: God Date: Now Subject: The Truth About Me and You I thought it was about time I cleared something up. For ages now, you’ve been running around thinking that you and I are separate. You’ve been thinking and believing that I am some greater...

Free in Prism

Sometimes when we have appeared to have dropped all seeking, suddenly it feels like we are seeking again… the feeling of wanting something… something other than this. You might want something to stop happening, like a painful pattern or you might want...

Admit One – The Movie of My Life

Around this time three years ago my life as I had known it fell apart and not for the first time. Looking at my past as a story, it’s had all the hallmarks of a tragic/comic, bitter-sweet drama with all the familiar moments of tension, suspense, surprise, very human...

The Gift of Eternity

The Gift of Eternity Today, as the sun shone I noticed that I felt this day would never end. All through my life, especially as a young child, this feeling has visited. I’ve come to recognise it these days as a sense of the eternity we truly are. It’s a...

Look and Be

I was listening to the news on the car radio as I drove over to my friend’s house and there were reports of nuclear threats, financial crime and snow in England, in spring. There certainly was snow, falling in hurried flurries – a strange mix of spring and winter, for...

Being Confident

I’ve always been a naturally confident person, on the whole. There have been times however when I don’t feel confident in some situations. And that still happens now and then. Over the years, I’ve spoken with many different people who feel lacking in...

See it NOW: Seeking vs. Looking by Mandi Solk

Mandi Solk has written a guest post here on the blog this month. You can find more of Mandi’s blog posts at her own site: www.mandisolk.com See it NOW: Seeking vs. Looking Guest Post by Mandi Solk If you think of yourself as a ‘seeker’, you will be seeking all...

Nonduality Meditation

At the deepest level, meditation is what we are. We are the meditation of life happening. One of the ways life meditates, is to meditate as itself believing it is a separate individual, cut off from its source and that it has to practice at getting back there....

Radical Loving of What Is

The freedom we long for is literally being everything that appears. This might seem confusing when teachers often say you are not what appears, you are not the feeling of sadness or the sensation of grief or anger. And while this is a good pointer and can bring about...

What You Really Want

“Well, tell me what you want, what you really, really want, I’ll tell you what I want, what I really, really want, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna, I wanna…” The Spice Girls I never thought the time would come when I would be quoting The Spice Girls!...

The Flow of Being

We spend so much time and energy rejecting the reality of what is. A feeling of boredom or restlessness shows up and we want to work out why it’s there or what it means or how to get rid of it. Sadness arises or anger or frustration and we want to analyse and...

Life’s Feast

What is it that moves me from the sofa to the laptop to write these words? What is it the beats the heart, that grows the grass, that moves the planets round the sun? Who speaks these words? Who writes? Whenever I look for the source of the one who experiences all...

Lost and Found

I have Lost all of this over the years: My Possessions (too numerous to list) My Mind My Respect My Dignity My Pride My Confidence My Identity My Health My Money My Jobs My Belief My Patience My Faith My Control My Happiness My Stability My Lovers My Status My Reality...

The Mystery of Living

Most of our thoughts, actions and behaviors are geared towards experiencing pleasure and avoiding experiencing pain. My spiritual seeking began in response to a life that wasn’t working out the way I’d dreamed and hoped it would. I frequently experienced what I...

Escape To This

Whenever life gets difficult I have felt desperate to escape. Life presents me with fear or confusion or situations that are not welcome and I feel trapped by them so seeking for escape begins. There is no end to the thoughts, feelings, sensations, situations and even...

Living the Mystery

When I speak with people about this mystery of oneness or Nonduality or consciousness or whatever name we decide to give it, I usually explain that for me awakening has been a gradual unfolding and that there are times when unity with all that appears is very much...

Meeting What Is

This past week I’ve been challenged to meet emotions, thoughts, sensations and story lines that usually we try to escape through spiritual seeking. Seeking is so much about rejection of those feelings, thoughts and sensations that don’t fit with our idea...

Life is an Olympic Sport

I’ve never been much of a sports fan so the Olympics have generally passed me by. There is something to be said however about non-duality and sport, even from the weedy kid who always found excuses to get out of PE (Physical Education). We’ve just finished...

Healing and Wholeness

This week I went to my dentist. As a survivor of oral cancer, trips to the dentist can generate a great deal of fear. Fear of pain, fear of illness, fear of disease and of course ultimately fear of death. It’s been 6 years since I was diagnosed with cancer. And...

Being As You Are

Being as you are. This is the enlightenment that cannot be avoided. At every moment through life you are already being as you are. Wholeness does not exclude any experience and nothing is rejected by the unconditional love of wholeness. All of your calamities, all of...

The Failure of The Failure Story

Last night I got drawn into the drama of my personal story. After a day of sitting about not really doing very much my mind wandered into the narrative of what is perceived to be happening to me. And with that came emotions that felt very strong. I was pulled into...
The Freedom You Are

The Freedom You Are

Hey. You remember me, don’t you? I’m that feeling you had when you were stood in the bluebell wood during the summer holidays and that sense of right-ness you had when the rain made the hot concrete smell like childhood and the taste of coffee at the airport cafe as...
Welcome Home

Welcome Home

Come home sweet child! Look and see that wherever you are, you are home. You needn’t journey one step away from where you are to be home. Home in and as the feeling of loneliness, in and as the desperation even of searching for home. Look! What is this? Yearning...

Jewels From The Mud

Over the past week I have been swept up in the drama of my life situation. Depression has visited as has anger, confusion, sadness and sobbing. And all this in response to what I perceive is happening to me. The drama flares up and for a time I believe that I am angry...

The Dark Cafe

Here’s an extract from my short story, The Dark Cafe. With much thanks to Nic at Nonduality Network for his time and expertise in recording the audio version of the short story. Listen to the full recording at www.nondualitynetwork.com Transcript of the Extract:...

Perfection

Over the last couple of years so many words and concepts have been re-born for me. The word and the concept of perfection stood alone for me in the past, separate from imperfection. Perfection was something that could never be achieved and there is of course great...

Can Nonduality Heal?

Nonduality is pointing to the wholeness that is life itself, so in that sense it is simply a word describing life happening. Can life heal itself? It certainly seems to at times. Funnily enough, life appears to have a preference for living! Healing is really...

Poem – Nothing is Sexy

What is nothing? It could simply be pure potential. An empty space in which something happens. Nothing could be whatever you think/feel or desire it to be. Right now, below this line of text appearing on the screen there is an empty space…      ...

Nonduality, Health and Healing

‘Can Nonduality Help Me Heal?’ Nonduality is simply pointing to the wholeness you already are. And when this wholeness is seen, it is seen through the being of it. And that is already happening, right now, wherever and whoever you appear to be. The...

Eternal Discovery

This is the eternal discovery. Discovering that being is being all that arises is this living realisation. It’ so easy to settle and get comfortable with understanding or clarity, to make a cosy bed in the ideas of oneness, the phrases, the concepts. This misses...

No Argument

In the total free fall of life happening there is no one to argue with what happens. So anger flares, sadness descends, irritation prickles and any number and flavour of emotions, feelings and sensations bubble to the surface of awareness. Ordinarily, we argue with...

Pink Panther Teaches Nonduality

My good friend Nic Higham has compiled a wonderful video that overlays an audio of Alan Watts over a popular Pink Panther video. The result is quite breathtaking as the imagery comes alive in a new way with Alan’s words of widsom. I hope you enjoy this as much...

Object Consiousness

One aware of or experiencing another is a dream. There is only experiencing, only this happening. This seamless, timeless, whole. As a separate individual I see objects in space. I see the things in the world around me, other people, nature, events. As a separate...

Nothing To Believe

What a relief! Nothing to believe! I have to admit that I struggle to describe this but when life lives freely as this, when the structure of separation is revealed to be but a dream then it is clear that there is nothing to believe any more. In the story of me on a...

The Dark in The Light

Life shows up in infinite forms, the dance of being is eternal. The horror of life is just as much oneness as the beauty and the joy. Horror is not pleasant of course, it’s not enjoyable the same way a sunset is enjoyable. Watching thousands of children starve...

An Ordinary Life

The belief that awakening causes your life to become radically different, to transform into your idea of a successful life is a persistent belief in the world of spiritual seeking. We so want to become better people, to secure our future, to say we’ve arrived...

Everything Is Special

When awakening happens it is seen that this is enough, whatever this happens to be. The ordinary is no longer ordinary but has an infinite depth. There is infinite depth in everything, in the simplest of things. A cupboard door, a pair of shoes, a bright harvest moon;...

The Miracle of This

What if none of it mattered? I’m too lazy, I get angry too easily, I should be more forgiving, I ought to exercise more or work harder. So what? In the game of becoming a ‘better’ person there is always something else to work on. There will always be...

Look For Yourself

When I used to think about awakening or enlightenment, I always thought about it as something that would or could happen in the future. Awakening was always the big plan that I had to put into action. I imagined that maybe this would happen after studying enough...

Personal Awakening

My spiritual seeking was always self centred until it was seen that the self at the centre was not there. I always wanted awakening to do something for me. Ultimately, I looked upon awakening as another way to avoid pain and find pleasure. Pleasure comes and goes as...

The Dark Cafe

The Dark Cafe A short story By Mike Jenkins Maria is struggling under the weight of depression and the pain of loss. Wandering the streets in the pouring rain and contemplating the ultimate loss, she begins to see in a totally new way. The Dark cafe is a story of...

Human Doing

Sometimes I might find myself longing for a better life. Better conditions in which to survive, better conditions in which to thrive. And then I start to look at what I can do to bring about those conditions. And then I complain that I’m having to do so much....

Both Nothing and Something

Resting in the spaciousness of nothing can be a welcome break from the pain and suffering that arises from the sleep of separation where there is only something. Only something may point to you, me, us, them, it. This is commonly termed separation in modern nondual...

Ego and Separation

Some spiritual teachers refer to the ego. The word ego means different things to different people. It is generally used in spiritual teachings to refer to the ‘I’ thought. For me, ego simply means the separate sense of self. It’s the sense of being...

The Dance of Life

Shall we dance? In the dance of life there is much to enjoy. The music, the spectacle, the atmosphere, the feeling of lightness, the power of stomping, the thrill of passion… the joy, the laughter, the tears. We are dancers and we are the dance. You are dancing...

The Thrill of The Ordinary

You don’t have to do anything special to get this. In fact, you can’t get this, you can’t have it because it’s not separate from the being that you are. Just being as you are is the great prize that is looked for in all worldly searching and in...

What If

What if the very happening of this moment were what you were really, really looking for? Not the content of any future moment or any object that you can own and identify yourself with but the actuality of this, here and now. What if you are already complete? What if...

Is My Awakening Complete?

One of the questions that often comes up for the spiritual seeker is the question of progress. How am I doing on my awakening journey? Is my awakening complete? What stage am I at? These are all questions that fascinate the seeker and of course ensure the game of...