Mandi Solk has written a guest post here on the blog this month. You can find more of Mandi’s blog posts at her own site: www.mandisolk.com
See it NOW: Seeking vs. Looking
Guest Post by Mandi Solk
If you think of yourself as a ‘seeker’, you will be seeking all your life, because a ‘seeker’ seeks for something.
Instead, ‘ know thyself’ as a ‘looker’ – not looking for something, but looking AT, that which has never been lost.
From this perspective everything takes a 360 degree turn-around -instantly!
You are no longer ‘seeking for’, which subjects you to a life of looking outside yourself for Home’, instead you are looking directly AT ‘home’.
THE SEEKER: continually looks for the next teacher, the next book, video, audio, Satsang, practice, or ‘Nonduality Club’ where just the right phrase or sentence could possibly be heard that changes everything and suddenly brings about Liberation.
There is nothing wrong with this of course, and it cannot be helped anyway, BUT, so often this becomes an addiction to seeking, an obsession, as it also provides a great social life, or in the case of a ‘Silent Retreat’, a break from the ‘real world’. It may be fun, relaxing, or ‘take you out of yourself’ for a while but if allowed to go on too long, it actually becomes just another ‘comfort-zone’ keeping you trapped in the world of ‘pointers’ and never actually arriving.
THE LOOKER: looks at what they are already. Simple as that. They have made a decision to end all these years of looking for just the right ‘pointer’ from just the right teacher, and they have given up the search in favour of looking inwards, not outwards. Then they discover there was never anything outside anyway. It’s all been a hoax.
What is meant by ‘looking at?’ Looking at what?
It simply means looking directly at the pure awareness that you are, without the ‘you’ that you think you are. In other words, present sounds, sights, smells, tastes and feelings, both physical and emotional, none of which has ever come via matter – such as ears, eyes, body etc. It is only awareness, your pure aliveness that supplies your consciousness with all this information. It was never ‘you’ the person. And here is a great quote from Mary Baker Eddy : ‘ I – dentity is not an ‘entity’.
So now you are a ‘looker’ – looking AT. ‘ Regard’ is the French word for ‘ to look’ . You can only ‘ Regard’ or LOOK AT what is there already. But if you think it’s not there, if you feel you’ve lost something, then you are back into ‘seeking’ – seeking to find it again.
So take up this suggestion: Stop seeking for and start looking AT . Believe me when I tell you that this changes everything, as I said earlier, a complete 360 degree turn-around.
Whenever you notice thoughts roaring, allow them to roar but neutralise yourself from their magnetic pull – STOP being interested and simply notice their underlying vibrational current. Notice sounds, sights, bodily sensations, including those thought-currents, and then you are staring right AT pure awareness. If you are washing-up, stare at the hands in the sink. If you are tying on the computer, watch that. Better still, sit for a minute, or as long as you are able and notice everything. That which notices, is ‘you’ AS pure awareness, aliveness.
Aliveness is what you are, or else how is it possible for you to walk around without WIRES??? It is LIFE that is walking itself. LIFE that is hearing, feeling and seeing ITSELF.
So LOOK AT IT! Not outside of it. You will never see anything ‘ outside’ because that would mean it would have to be outside of your awareness, which is impossible because if you are not aware of it, then it cannot exist.
All this might sound like a very subtle change, but the emphasis on looking at rather than seeking for is Paramount and the difference between seeing and not seeing.